In this episode: I touch on what I left in 2024 as well as what I’ve learned, my spiritual awakening and how it has spilled into my writing, and my relationship with control. I also touch on what I’ll be bringing to this blog in 2025.
Hey, babiesssss. So, I’ve decided to rebrand this blog. Somewhat. I don’t feel like I’ve really given this blog the best that I could creatively. I could be trippin fr. Maybe even in my own head and beating myself up, but I want to shift from too much of the vulnerable, introspective shit. Not that anything is wrong with that. But there are so many aspects to my personality that I want to showcase. I’m not always psychoanalyzing myself or others, and I definitely don’t want to give that off in this blog. But I guess the last couple of months served as a spiritual awakening for me, and naturally… it translated into my writing and this blog. I’m not mad at it whatsoever. I was capturing moments… like a camera, but with words. And now I’m ready to move on. Move on from niggas. Move on from bitches. Move on from my own destructive behavior.
I feel like y’all probably be reading my shit thinking that I’m tryna jump off a cliff and down a bottle of bleach every damn day. And it's like… no. I mean, occasionally that’s the case. Like someone can forget my 4th BBQ sauce at McDonald’s and I’ll be overdramatic and wanna kill myself, but I mean… that ain’t an everyday thing. This bitch def be watching cartoons and being creative and silly and crazy. I’m not always in a dark place.
I guess this pod episode serves as a closing of a chapter for me. Not that I won’t still carry that introspective, vulnerable side of me, but it doesn’t have to consume me. I am the daughter of Oya and I found out right on time. It made me reflect and look at the bigger picture of things.
If you’re not familiar, Oya is an Orisha in the Yoruba religion who was the God of lightning, wind, and storms. She is associated with themes or rebirth, death, destruction, change, and transformation. Oya was in a very fiery, intense, passionate, but chaotic relationship with Shango— God of thunder, fire, and justice. Oya would lose all logic when it came to Shango, and she even became a little obsessive. However, despite the toxicity of their connection (y’all gotta read into their love story, lmaooo), Shango had this unconditional love for Oya because of her feistiness, sass, and unconventional approach to femininity. Oya had the temper of a bull, and ANYTHING could piss her the hell off. She had what we would call anger issues in this day and age, y’all. As compared to the more popular Orisha— Oshun and Yemaya— Oya was considered what these niggas would also call ‘masculine.’ She was very blunt, outspoken, direct, assertive, and very much so loved being in control. She went to battle alongside Shango, and would grow a beard before going into war, which symbolized her ability to be just as powerful as men. Oya represents the dark feminine archetype very well and is associated with the number 9, which is typically associated with surrendering, letting go, and closing chapters. Her colors are usually brown, red, burgundy, and purple.
When I found out, it actually scared me. Because as we all know, I’ve written about my need for control, and my newfound relationship with surrendering. I see myself in Oya so much, as I too, have anger issues that I’ve had to work through in anger management therapy, and I’ve also been the black sheep of my family because of my unconventional views on life. Then, the fact that her colors are red and brown was actually fucking hilarious and just as spooky to me, because those were the colors I picked when I chose to embrace my Kamory Rose era, as they symbolized intensity, passion, power, and anger.
I took this as a sign for me to close this chapter. Not so much as far as discarding or disposing of my transparency— but in embracing my inner child and letting go and having fun with this platform. So, what can we expect on this blog?
WHAT’S STAYING🍒:
Kam’s Soundtrack: This is going to stay! I like to showcase new music I’ve been listening to that is reflective of where I’m at. I love that y’all have downloaded the playlist and I get happy when you all tell me I’ve put you guys on to new music.
The Pleasure Chronicles: I somewhat got off track with this, as I have two jobs and I haven’t been making as much times for pleasurable things as much as I though. But it’s making a comeback.
Diary like pieces: the introspection will still be here, but sporadically.
NEW CHANGES💫:
TV SHOW/FILM Zodiac Breakdowns: I’ll be watching TV Shows and Movies and breaking down the zodiac signs of each character. So, let me know what shows or movies you would like me to do!
Album Reviews: I love music. I’m a music connoisseur. And there are so many albums from so many different eras that I’d like to do a review on/breakdown on. I’d also like to put y’all on to my album rotations because I genuinely feel as though sharing music is superrrr intimate. And I feel like I got an intimate connection with y’all on here… purrrrrr.
HOTLINE: I’m working on a hotline for you guys! I’m tryna whip up a hotline where y’all can leave comments, questions, or ask me for advice on some shit. I’m working on it…
Book Reviews: A bitch be readinggggg. I can admit I kinda fell off towards the end of the year, but I have a goal of reaching 50 books by the end of 2025! I wanna take y’all on the journey with me.
Interviews: There are some people I admire who I’ll be showcasing on this blog.
I’m very excited about this new chapter of me. I cannot wait to show y’all what I’m working on and I hope that this new shit is received well.
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