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Jacque Aye's avatar

This is so so real and you spoke to my soul this morning. After being dragged up and down this year and my heart treated like a yo-yo I also thought “I’m never caring again”. Caring gets you nowhere. They will extract the care and toss you to the side. They’ll tell you they think about you every day and then not talk to you for 24 hours. It’s disorienting.

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Ionie Banner's avatar

this was so validating! i'm so tired of all the "strategies" and trying to "one-up" men by being silent and stoic. personally, that's never helped me! like you said, that resentment and saddness is heavyyy... sometimes the crashout is the closure!

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Kay Renee's avatar

Perfect! I’ll gonna keep being my vulnerable self

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kelissimoe's avatar

realest shit i’ve ever read

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thepeoplevsAD.'s avatar

Truer words have never been written

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TJ's avatar
May 4Edited

Can confirm I crashed out on two lame ass bitches today.

It was bad.

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Natasha Crumpler's avatar

Whew I'm also a certified crash out I do not play about my feelings. I'm the queen of sending a long dramatic text I do not care and I'll double text as well!

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EL's Archive's avatar

Right voice memos and all. You gonna hear from me.

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Yoshiko Wakum's avatar

The title got me weak

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Tao Titus's avatar

I couldn’t stop laughing 😭

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Chio's avatar

It's not to suppress yourself, is to protect yourself. Sending that paragraph is giving more material to a person that doesn't give a fuck and doesn't even bother to own that he doesn't give a fuck. Why waste energy teaching basic decency to a grown ass man, that even when you point out the way he could do better, won't do better because it's not about not knowing or not understanding, but about him refusing to see you as an equal human being who matters. Better to stop giving a fuck yourself. Send that paragraph, but also send him to the trash.

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Nys Solenne's avatar

Thanks for the validation. I sent a paragraph two days ago and thought should i have? Remembering all these ‘strategies’ but nah he needed to know about himself.

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EL's Archive's avatar

I felt this in every fiber of my bone. Cause why is trying not to crash out more exhausting than just crashing tf out. No thank you. Imma get shit off my chest for my own sanity

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Kiersten Taté's avatar

do you have cancer or 4th house placements by chance? the line about channeling your female elders/ancestors when you pop off on a man sounds like it (and resonates w/ me as someone w/ cancer and 4th house placements lol).

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kamory rose.'s avatar

I actually have a 4H stellium 😂

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Samuel Godwin's avatar

I read your works, because I want to do better as a man. Not every action or inaction of a man is worthy of been judged in isolation. We do somethings we don't even know we're doing, and the societal structures has it hands in this too.

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kamory rose.'s avatar

No, I get that. This was just capturing how I felt in the moment🤎

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Samuel Godwin's avatar

I understand that too.

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twentysmthn's avatar

"Motivate your ass, call me Malcolm X" true poetry 💆🏾‍♀️

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Chrissy - Queen of Rest's avatar

As I always say, leave with hellfire. Let a mf know not to play with you. And never give em a chance to do it again.

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Jazz's avatar

REAL 🔥💚 love this energy

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